Not autist (or never looked) but… basically that is what I feel. I join people, a discord group or whatever then the second I actually let myself go Im kind of a pariah for saying something idiotic casually or behaving in a certain way.
At this point Im too traumatized, feel it needless to try really go socializing all the while loneliness is eating me up. This is just a loop that eats away at me, each day feeling like remaining alone is a foregone conclusion. Of course even if that was fixed, I have chronic pain so I wont enjoy anything.
I want to kill myself. And if I fail there is nothing anyone can do but torture for me it. Even more of an outcast, who lost his mind.
Not autist (or never looked) but… basically that is what I feel. I join people, a discord group or whatever then the second I actually let myself go Im kind of a pariah for saying something idiotic casually or behaving in a certain way.
At this point Im too traumatized, feel it needless to try really go socializing all the while loneliness is eating me up. This is just a loop that eats away at me, each day feeling like remaining alone is a foregone conclusion. Of course even if that was fixed, I have chronic pain so I wont enjoy anything.
I want to kill myself. And if I fail there is nothing anyone can do but torture for me it. Even more of an outcast, who lost his mind.
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