That deserves its own sequel.

Diarrhea 5: Well Shit, You Can Shart on Aliens Now

You know, you’re right. I’m weird. I love being weird. I associate with weird people, generally those who would also self-identify as weird.

It’s a fluid word that can be used in a lot of weird ways.

But it has never bothered me that it’s used in this context personally. I understand it’s directed at people who are just not right, and in other times that could’ve included some of us.

It’s of course meant in the context of “You are acting unacceptably and we can’t be quiet about it anymore.”

And the meme came from Gov. Walz, who carves butter. That’s weird! In a strange and adorable Midwestern way.

There’s a whole range of possible symptomatic ‘quirks’ autistic people have. I wouldn’t go trying to determine “how autistic” you are in such a way.

If you go out of your way to try new foods, but settle in on the one thing you like and keep getting it, to me that would seem a little obsessive from both sides.

“I must try everything so I know the best one.”

Most people would go “Hmm, what do I want tonight?” That’s the ‘normal’.

Me, I was very picky as a kid. Then I opened up my palate and tried a bunch of new things, surprising relatives who had known me my whole life.

Then I discovered I have serious sensitivities, which is probably why as a kid I stuck with just a few foods.

But in the end I don’t know I am autistic. I’d just be surprised if I wasn’t.

No, I get what you mean. You should at least forgive yourself because you are a better person now.

That others think you still deserve to be punished is enough. You don’t need to add your pain to the mix, but it is easy to do that.

It’s worth pointing out that the act of remembering a moment overwrites the memory with your current memory of that memory.

In essence, by cringing at your own behavior, you place a negative and self-abusive frame upon it.

Try to start practicing self-forgiveness. Laugh at yourself. Smile at your own naive behavior.

It does work, but it takes time, and it’s never too late to start forgiving yourself.

Add to that the difficulty in being tested as an adult.

I’m okay with thinking I’m probably autistic. I’ve struggled, I’ve had some lost years, but I’ve learned coping mechanisms and have a decent life.

I’m not trying to steal anyone’s label of struggle and disability, I’m trying to identify my own and learn how to better cope.

I was playing on a MUD (early mmorpg thing by telnet) in 1994 and the creator wanted some of the core players to make characters as part of the plot. The game never went anywhere after that (it was called Kaspelheim) but the character I made was Pronell Mordini, perrin (otterlike humanoids) trademaster.

I just kept using the name online since then. It’s never taken. But someone else did get [email protected].

Mouse wheel on one, power failure on the other. The second one my cats kept knocking to the floor so I can’t really blame Logitech on that one but with the Nulea one it really hit home that Logitech doesn’t refine their designs any longer.

Even their hardware is suffering.

I moved to a knockoff trackball (Nulea) that’s considerably better so far, simply because I went through two trackballs in three years.

Failing is a part of success. You learn what didn’t work, refine your technique, and try again.

If all you do is succeed, you don’t know why and can’t learn from it.

Success is the work of trying and failing, repeatedly, until what you’re doing doesn’t look like failing to outsiders. But even then you know what was wrong with your successes.

Looks like it was a multi-player Zelda-like with user made campaigns.

I can see why that would be a hell of a lot of fun.

“Either that or the stuff I bought… yes. Yes, I am weird.”

It was an old shirt, but not quite ratty.

I’m a huge nerd. I love triggering people’s interests.

But one day at the local coffee house someone was wearing an O.G.R.E t-shirt, a very old game. And I’d been an active gamer in that era but never played that one.

This was simply unacceptable! He had to describe the game in great detail, and I’ll admit I had a good time letting him let it all out.

It’s fun! I’m sure he remembers that day when someone actually knew what his shirt was about.

Holy crap is that a bad look.

Two organizations I would ideally support in a staredown and it sounds like the ACLU is in trouble.

Damnit.

Thanks. I’m not really a mainstream gamer anymore. I don’t even know what genre pubg is, heh.

What’s the other one?