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  • If I make a to do list I almost inevitably add completely unnecessary fluff.

    Such as

    -remove winter clothing, wash, dry, refold -Delete old emails and create new email / up date subscriptions / cancel subscriptions -Relearn polynomial equations -memorize birds common in (my area) -learn how to identify trees in (my area) And then -Pay off credit card debt [doesnt seem as worthwhile compared to relearning polynomial despite it’s abject greater practicality and value]


  • I never thought I had ADHD until recently. About a month ago or something I was diagnosed. I have: however, for all of my life struggled apparently more than my peers. I couldn’t focus, I had meltdowns learning math and reading, (crying, yelling, shutting down ) I’m late places, Im often late to turn in work things or previously school things. After work 80%-90% of the time I feel completely numb, wasted, tired, and a little (or a lot) depressed.

    The memes and the mental health awareness zeitgeist, I think helped me connect the dots where I used to believe it was just depression and a lack of motivation and or discipline and also a lack of socialization at the right ages resulting in less social skills and less self confidence.






  • I find taxes, for example, to be inconsequential, immediately. I also find taxes to be…I cannot start until I get every iota of paperwork needed and not needed but deemed important by myself for unknown reasons. And then I dont get those papers, or I do but I dont actually get the papers I need only the accessory things I felt very important. Somewhat overwhelming when combined with other tasks. “Gotta do taxes” “but i NEED to so laundry” “gotta fold clothes, BUT I dont really” so on and so fourth.

    Thank you for your reply. I suppose what I need to do is be more mindful of symptoms and ‘watch myself more closely’ until the assessment.

    I do find moving my toes up and down is comforting, sometimes rocking my upper torso (when i know im not being observed) is also comforting. But it feels natural like probably everyone does that a little bit. Especially when very stressed.

    The social criteria is the main mover or primary motivation for seeking diagnoses. I dont know if it this or that disorder but I have always felt different amd been described in various ways as being different. I find it bery hard to imagine how one can meet friends, maintain friends, let alone have a long term romantic partner who lives in the same household. I never make eye contact as it makes it me lose my train of thought.Eye contact seems like a thing that is directly opposed to meaningful conversation, how can anyone focus and fully flesh out a thought when staring at a goblet of eye. I do feel as though I have higher than average knowledge of how others feel or what their emotions are when speaking to them. I believe this to be an adaptation based on my life.

    A mannerism I’ve been called out on is that my vocal volume is so low thst people cannot hear me and then I will begin to shout a few randomly. This is because I randomly remember that I am prone to speaking too quietly. This has resulted in comedic situations, and people being genuinely upset (angry) thst I was yelling at them.

    Thanks foe the reply


  • Ah this was a thorough reply.

    The memes are fairly relatable.

    No one has diagnosed me. I am speaking to a psychologist whom I specifically asked for an autism and ADHD diagnoses. Im awaiting the actual assessment after filling out a bunch of papers.

    A lot his questions like: do you often not hear your name? Do you find a particular texture uncomfortable? I am find myselfing answering no. It has happened, I believe several times, but its hard to recall these things. The only stimulation I find quite irritable is like a club atmosphere and large crowds in grocery stores or other brightly lit clinical settings eith crowds. Clubs make me feel immediately irritable and tired amd stressed