I don’t my go to is self doubt
OP, don’t fall into a Jonah Complex based on burn-out. I’ve been there, it took a long time to come out of it. Always believe in yourself and you can do anything! You’re going to make it OP!!!
Yeah and then that causes its own nice little hell.
If I find it interesting for long enough.
This is the crux of it. One you climb that hill what is on the other side is rarely as interesting and diverting as learning how to do it.
Or as I like to say, “I can do anything. Except earn a living wage.” 🫠
I can make all sorts of cool shit, but I have zero ability to market myself. Though considering that making a hobby into a job is a great way to sap all the joy out of it, I’m happy to give things I make away as gifts.
Well you ruin the novelty of it being on your own time and only for you. You can do a hobby for a job but it’s the work part that people dread. It’s the fact you’ll have to be dealing with people’s questions and feedback and all that other shit that makes it an impossible start and the fact that hobby-grade knowledge vs business grade knowledge is different from (for example) pump and dumping a bunch of 3D printed regurgitation vs creating art from your own mind and learning how to use auto desk.
I can get into learning how to make insignificance for others and have a significance for myself but I also don’t want to put in that effort to learn another hobby because I become consumed and sometimes it’s depressing knowing that I get good at stuff to the point where those around me are impressed and think I should be doing more while knowing that what I know and would know, is only good enough to larp as a professional.
Either way, getting a seasonal part time job has given me a sense of purpose and I’m saving up to get back into hobbies and to save up for a career training program.
I think that it’s foolish to rely on hobbies for money making and I think it’s foolish to think, that just because you’re good at something means you’re meant to do something as a career and that’s because I’ve gone through the whole let me get phenomenally good at a hobby to the point of near entry level career starting point and then it all collapses when you realize just because you’re good enough doesn’t mean it’ll get you anywhere in a professional setting. Fuck was that depressing.
Sometimes a hobby is just a hobby and life moves forward in a job setting if you wear the mental mask and take it off when you get home.
Yeah. It’s interesting because I get a lot of pushback from people who normally tell me I can do anything, regardless of whether I actually could. As soon as it’s something hard that I want to do, they start hemming and hawing and saying I shouldn’t. Like wtf is that?
And from a life’s experience… It’s not just a belief
Words straight out of my mouth.
The problem is we can’t often choose where to aim this hyperfocus.
Oh so you could make that a means to an end as well like everything else that’s devoid of joy in capitalist society?
If I could choose where exactly to point this ability I could have a serious go at figuring out some unknowns in our understanding of the universe.
I have no idea what you had in mind, or what you really meant by your run-on sentence/question.
It would have been lost on you either way
Yes. Unfortunately however I don’t have much control over what I get interested in
Or how long I stay interested in something.
It’s usually long enough to get me about 20-30% of the way through a project…
And then after getting to about 70% of mastering it, lose all interest.
Lmao yes
That, plus the crushing feeling of worthlessness when you try something and aren’t immediately good at it.
really? i LOVE not being good at things. it means i’ll actually get to spend some time doing it trying to learn.
doing this with dancing right now! nothing as satisfying as the big gains you get right at the beginning of something you suck at
This is why it’s so hard for me to hold a stable job. Once I learn how everything works I start getting bored and stop having fun
I think this is what I love about music. Even though I kinda suck at it, there’s always a little something I can improve on with 5-10 minutes of practice.
“we choose to go to the moon and do the other things, not because they are easy, but because we thought they were easy”
The opposite (I refuse to do it, or even try, if I don’t find it interesting) is also true for me.
It’s easier to maintain that attitude if you look at other people’s output and go:
“I don’t know if I’m good, but I’m definitely better than those guys.”
And also, that sounds super arrogant, but then again those guys make very embarrassing mistakes all the time, so idk…
Yah I have this too. And then ultra embarrassingly I end up making similar mistakes at times.
Yes but it’s self-fulfilling because I’m less interested in things that I’m bad at
Nah, there’s tons of things I am noticeably less skilled at than the average person, but still way more dedicated and knowledgeable than randos.
I do. If I get rabbit hole on something I can do an aweful lot.
I have the confidence that if I try at something I will fuck it up
from one adhd’er to another, chuckled at this
“I’m not a nihilist, what would be the point of being a nihilist?”
In that moment
It is true though!
