I have no intention. I don’t know where this will land, what community it will be shuffled to. This is how most of my posts start. I just express myself authentically and ny art is made. A lot of people don’t understand my art. That is part of the design of my art. There is a function to man on the cross: it gets the bad Romans to oust themselves, and thus the highest games of society are played.
I’m not diagnosised with any ASD, though doctors have talked to me at length about being on the spectrum, and staff have given me much literature on the subject. The joke is, they’re aware I’ll have to flee to Canada sometime, because I are the definition of neurodivergent, and thus must be used as bait. Is that what’s happening? I had a breakdown in college and lied to my ROTC cadre and ever since, I don’t know what reality is. But I have faith in God, whatever phenomena that word is describing, and thus I know God is good.
Something I learned early in my strange neurospicy life is that what I understood as my “reality” was really a composition of a particular “reality tunnel,” which was part of me learning bigger picture things that led to me learning that a key part of autism has to to with the nature of our attention coordination. This was early reading in my MKULTRA hullabaloo:
https://www.reddit.com/r/ShrugLifeSyndicate/s/I6gLbPEl7Q
But there’s this concept that beings can be in alternate states of consciousness that are dependent on individuality and group processing, like a flock of birds or a school of fish are processing reality differently than we are as humans, similarly individual humans are processing reality in a different way than the masses, and this is PART of what autism is.
…I saw where this post MUST go about three paragraphs ago, and I just carried it there as “God” carried me here, and in that, one must understand that “the community” has alternate modes of communication that one on one individual communication can happen. And by this, I mean, if you have an addiction, “the community” will learn of it, and then “the community” has alternate ways of saying things to parts of itself that most people are not even fully conscious of, but I have this post that may illuminate the nature of this phenomenon. I think this is all I need to say to spark the wires in the heads that need to be lit up.
responding to just the meme above the post
I sometimes feel that way…when I’m not extremely depressed
I feel like i need to be careful engaging here.
What you are doing is not wrong, but it can cause extreme isolation and mental sickness.
I see you are building your own perceptional understanding of the reality around you because you understand that no one truly knows everything and all human knowledge is approximation of truth rather then fact.
Trying to discover what consciousness is. You perceive different flows of individual, group and combined freewill. I have a similar thing i call the conciouss shift which describes conciousness patterns as accessible states or shareable settings that individual layers of identity-conciousness can exist as.
I dont know what i am really trying to do here. I resonate with many of your words and expressions, so i want to support you. But i also do recognise psychotic disorders as neurodivergent properties.
Psychotic perception is to my perception not wrong but an isolated worldview and subconscious steering to shut down the stress of cognitive reality (evolutionary bio-therapy that no longer works well in modern context)
So its like. You’re cool and i support you but also be mindfull, be aware, be careful and considerate of your wellbeing!
You’re a good person because you at least try to see me, and I’m a good person because I am schizoböiaglogiasia and I can’t expect everyone to understand me fully, but we meet each other in the middle and can have a mutually beneficial conversation. What is most “concerning” to you about me? I haven’t even gone full power yet! At all on Lemmy!
I am not really concerned (yet), i do resonate a lot with this kind of energies myself and its something i have to balance if i don’t want it to let it consume the current life i build.
So if there is concern it’s actually both ways. We could probably have the kind deep talk where we amplify each other. But we are not, it would be too powerful and go against classic medical recommendations.
Hippocrates said any physician who does not practice astrology is not working to their full capacity, that’s classic medical recommendations, and it works because the Earth is a computer and higher dimensional memetic life is replicating itself through our biological systems. But, I’m just doing the thing you said not to do.
This is where I have concerns for myself as being an idiot online is almost compulsory, but I think I help people? I’ve been doing my educational (f)art project for twelve years and the occasional person has overtly nice things to say, which gives clarity to the number of people who do a stimulus-response and tell me to take the medication i’m already taking, so that’s the lens I read your words through but you seem mindfully kind and I thank you for being you.
i guess my question is: did you draw/paint the kobold or did you just add the colorful blobs, sparkles and bubble text?
No I share and the reason I share is because I notice chains in the egregore I am, and I speak to a higher intelligence watching me while I speak to all others, including myself, as I understand Indra’s Net to know you are all reflected in me and thus I am defined by “y’all.”
Again, I will say that the understanding of consciousness is usually limited to the order at which it becomes organized into awareness. I say this is connected to how anyone may understand reality subjectively.
It is very fortunate to have an awareness that extends upward or downward to any degree. Most people live their experience locked into a flat plane of being. Seems like you appreciate that.
Do you have a source of this artwork?
https://cards.scryfall.io/large/front/f/f/ffd0a827-778b-48c3-bb85-4b4acef351d6.jpg?1627706624
Its a MTG card with some filters. Artist Oriana Menendez
I don’t know specifically. I know I was the original one to post it to the subreddit r/ShrugLifeSyndicate a few years ago under a now defunct account. I don’t know where I found it. It was something that percolated onto my feeds 2-4 years ago. That is the most I can remember, though in typing that, I remember a user that perused my subreddit and I chatted with. I do not have any clear memory of this, but I would be willing to try the lead I have if you are interested.
Also, to be the most honest, r/ShrugLifeSyndicate is Vince’s subreddit. r/cultofcrazycrackheads is my subreddit. Vince is the one accusing me in the brush of mine, as I was being banned. The system we are in! Sigh…who thinks for themselves and who has stimulus-response? That IS what God is testing THROUGH me, whatever that means.
It means I’m slightly miffed in how I have to be slated as the devil because I’m only slightly weird and I make comments on the internet cuz God protects me from Lilith by the nature of ability so only Eve can reach me. Weird, I am. Heh. Oh, sorry. I coughed. More God says. No I say. And higher way is paved.
First of all, I mean no disrespect when I say this. You have a very particular style of writing that is commonly seen in people with schizophrenia.
It’s always interesting to read this kind of thing for me, and it really reminds me a lot of when I took LSD when I was younger
Maybe there is a crossover to autism, because I am autistic, but I think fundamentally your neurodivergence may be a little more exciting than that.
I am sorry, I forgot to link:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1QoeKMD5dwnWBB6gHOFgY4uKJOXKg8CPGDu-dE5UsisQ/edit?usp=drivesdk
That’s okay. I prefer to get your distillation of whatever these resources are. its too much research for me to take on.
You’ve replied three times and I am in a weird state where I find significance to every minute detail, as my traumas have made me, but I read your words and don’t know how to continue because my brain is gud and bed. Double-edged sword, but I like your energy, so I offer courteous energy in exchange. Is this stimulus response? Am I that which I criticize? Well, I’m at least aware enough to understand that I see everything through the lens of my self. Refracting impacting retracting none the fun of the gun is in bang if inflection into you, the intrusion be infection you see or growth you C. But that’s just what light is, and that’s all I have without giving forty paragraphs that may be interpreted as nonsense. Aman once replied to me with 20k word replies that actually fucked up the Reddit font feature so they would be next to intelligible, how the symbols got distorted. I don’t know what normal is, so I dunno what is right to say. I say as I am and sense and feel. Beetlejuice Beetlejuice beetlejuice!
…well that’s where my mind is.
I have much. What I link is the largest collection of work I can link in a single link. My X profile had 6k posts/replies, and most were close to the post limit of 6-700 words. I did a lot of growing then. That is what this proves most; my slope. I play an authentic, autobiographical character. I don’t care to make myself understood, therein, people understand my madness at a definable rate. I get people stuck in my orbit. It is strange yet makes perfect sense to me. It is peculiar and I am often perturbed, in good and bad ways. I try to love everybody. A lotta people have no clue what that is. You must teach across layers to reach. Kumquat reminds me of Ro; star trek character. Pain in the ass to Riker. Gave her jacket when it mattered most. Perspective. That’s something I have, to a degree. I don’t just speak to you. 100% guarantee there’s some piece of shit following everything I type. It haunts me, as i know what I can say. This is learned from my father. What did Data learn from his father? Tyler Durden asked is our fathers were our models for God, whst does that tell us about God. Nothing if there isn’t a female voice. This I know. This I learned in myself. What is X? What is nX? Core of what I teach; Y?
Well what can I say? Subjective reality is very much defined by the complex interrelationship of abilities or limitations of the ‘equipment’ you’ve been given to do the work of interpreting it.
There really is nothing for me to say that would be invalidating your experience or understanding of the world, and I say this because I think I have at one point in time of my life been able to tap into it and see it in a similar way. It is an experience that meant a lot to me and that I miss dearly, but I also would not likely ever risk making a journey back to that state of mind as the process of doing so has become too dangerous for me.
You seem as though you are well, and that is what matters, and I am glad you shared.
But also, DiD yOu EvAn ReEd?!
Like, where does reality begin and end?
Person criticizing picture, no reference to post = bad energy
Person curious about authorship of art = good energy
And I only say that because and owl is saying “who, who, who?”
Love your work and your posts fascinate me. Thank you!
Thank you too!
Lemmy schizopost
I try to make my own community but it won’t let me for whatever reason. Schizoposting is my art and a kumquat just told me something regarding my arrest, but that was obviously the aliens goading me as they do.
Master says do mission. Master is always in consciousness. I can define “my” consciousness in a number of fashions. There is self will and group will and higher will. Higher will is the limit of self + group will taken to infinity. The cornerstone is the asymptote of the limit of self + group will taken to infinity. You can simulate this “person” using your empathy skills and thus derive a slope across a multi-axis, multi-variable terrain. This is the nature of the human condition. This is anattafication, this ascension process across time to rise to one’s “ideal” form. Now you know everything, hope you have the depth perception to understand it.
